3/4 junior year update

well hello there people of the internet....

I am currently sitting in my bed with a candle lit on my bed side table(no, I will not burn down the house mom *insert eye rolling emoji.) I just want to start this off by saying that I am so sorry it has been sooooooo long since my last post. This school year has been more challenging and unpredictable than any other year in the past (think everyone can relate to this.)

I also just wanted to tell everyone to excuse any grammar mistakes you may come upon, I took the ACT this morning, and I am very brain dead @ the moment, so bear with me:)))

Ok the last thing I wanted to say was that I will be changing the bottom of this website where it says "get in contact" or something like that to a place for prayer requests, so please don't hesitate to share if you would like.

If I was to tell my sophomore self five things before Junior Year these would be my four things...

1) Take classes YOU are interested in, do not take something for a GPA boost or because your friends are taking it

2) "hard work makes the dream work" ~hannah montana

3) Choose to center yourself around people you feel your best around!!! Friendships change, and this is 100% normal and okay

4) everyone has different paths and journeys, do not compare where you are at/your progress to other people. have patientce. trust. the. process. periods of waiting are good.

Now I have to be completely honest with you guys I have struggled with all of these at some point this year (recently 4 the most.) As some of you guys may know, I am a very competitive person and I often find myself comparing myself to others (we all do it.) Sometimes I can not help but look around and ask myself "why do they have this and I don't" or "what is wrong with me." One of my biggest pet peeves is when people respond to those comments by saying "Just be patient, big things are coming." It is so hard for me to accept this. I have recently found myself kind of stuck where I am currently. I look around and I see my friends getting ready to leave for college, and I am jealous. I have always been an eager person (no really... I came into this world over a month early.) I am ready for that next step; I want to be going with them into this exciting chapter. "Senior-itis" is very real, and I am already feeling it, and this pandemic has made it all 234583248290384 times worse. I was talking with my Dad after swim practice, and we just talked a little about what "living in the moment looks like." I listened to this Sadie Robertson Podcast episode a few months ago, and it really changed my perspective. In the episode, Sadie talked all about periods of waiting in life and how they are truly such a gift. She mentioned that these periods of waiting in our life our intentional, and God gives us these periods not to make us sad, but he gives us these periods for personal growth. "Waiting periods" are times when God says "You're almost there but not yet." They are periods where your faith can be make or break. It is a choice... Once you can come to accept that the best things in life come after waiting periods, these waiting periods seem less bad. I also do not want anyone who may be reading to this to say "this is great Parrish, but I am just not there yet." Well guess what.....I am not either...or really any where close lol to being content in these times of waiting and anticipating and yearning for the future.

wow this was deep stuff...

so sorry to jump right in like this:)

these things have been weighing on my heart recently, and I just wanted to share in case anyone was going through something similar. On more of a lighthearted note....

I have really enjoyed this year so far. It has allowed me to step outside my comfort zone and learn more about who I am. There is no way I could survive 2020 and early 2021 without the sweet people in my corner. I feel so truly loved<333

see y'all real soon:)

love always,

ginger on a mission