thoughts from a high school senior

there simply is nothing like going on a hike while listening to a Sadie Robertson podcast to get you thinking.

I think about the person I was when I first started this blog, and I am truly such a different person now. I am entering into a new season of life-college.

People always talk about that last semester of senior year and how difficult it really is. It isn’t difficult in the school sense, in fact it is a time to reap the benefits of taking hard classes and doing well. It is hard for a variety of reasons. For one, I’ve found myself trying to tie up loose ends. Whether this be in relationships I currently have or ones I am trying to maintain. I feel an urge to establish peace before I leave this place and start my “new life.” It is also hard in the sense that you are trying to soak in all of your “lasts” at the same time. It is weird to envision a world in which I don’t come home to my parents after a long day of school and swim. It means saying goodbye to the episodes of “Office” my dad and I would watch in the evening and the pancake mornings on Sunday. Lastly, the most difficult of them is purpose and identity. I frequently think about what my days are going to be like next year. I often see a sleep deprived, bright eyed college girl who is meeting so many new people and truly loving her best life. She is constantly being challenged and in that there substantial is growth. I can’t wait to be ~that~ girl. I look forward to people knowing me as her. After listening to one of Sadie’s podcasts I am reminded that your identity is not who you are it is who God is through you. My identity will not be a “sorority girl” or the girl you sit next to in “Intro into Accounting.” In the past few months the college question and the “What do you want to do with your life” question become monotonous. I usually give people the same response each time. It feels really daunting choosing what you want to do with the rest of your life at the young age of 18. I find myself constantly wondering what God’s purpose is for my life and if it corresponds with the one I have planned for myself. Am I destined to sit at a desk everyday working a 9-5 job I really could not tell you. He is the only one who knows. It gives me reassurance when I hear that I could not do anything or make any decisions that God has not already made for me. Now do not even get me started on how overwhelming it can feel selecting a roommate. Nowadays most people meet their roommates on social media sites. You post a couple of your best photos and a caption you hope will make you been seen a certain way. Now believe me I am guilty of this myself. I just have to tell myself “God’s got this. God’s got this.” In this awkward period of waiting, anticipation, goodbyes, and lasts it is so easy to get wrapped up in it all. If you gleam anything from this it is that these periods are some of the best seasons of personal growth and a launching pad for your future:)

xoxo,

ginger on a Mission